July 31, 2012

July is Birthday month...

So we have come to the end of July, and I am sooo thankful for it!

July is birthday month in my family. There are 6 parents/sisters/brothers/nieces/husbands... then there are even more extended family.

So that aside it happened to be that hubby and I both turned 30 this month!

We celebrated by throwing a Medieval fancy dress "60th" party, in the midst of 3 weeks worth of family sicknesses! Sensible? Maybe not! A Hell lot of FUN? Definitely.

So in the week leading up to said party, when I should have had all the costumes made and ready I found myself at spotlight buying all the material needed, so I could make 4 costumes in a week! And, hell's yes, I made it...

The Hubby and I in the matching costumes I made! (not the corset or his under clothes!)

Small girl in her Dragon Get up... courtesy of yours truly AGAIN!

Big girl in her Sorcerous dress... made by.. You guessed it Moi!

And the boy, being a knight, costume supplied by the cheapo store.. he did wear a cape that I made him for a while also!

So blog with pictures as promised!

July 4, 2012

Of sun and choice?

The Winter Solstice was a time of contemplation for me and has seen me make a few steps toward major life changes, nothing to drastic to be down for now, but a gentle process of acceptance for things to come and letting go of the ways of old.

I have been sinking into depressive 'episodes' and having gentle and discreet panic attacks more and more often in the last few months and nothing is helping me get a handle on it.

The release of tension and stress involved in commitments I had made has helped. The acceptance of changes that I didn't want to make have done more good than stressing about the changes I wanted to resist, but really knew I wouldn't be able to for much longer.

Tax time here brings with it new financial challenges and concerns of where the money needs to go and what we should do versus what we want to do and finding the balance in all that lies ahead. It most certainly isn't easy.

New ideas, old ideas, ideas that you just know are not going to be applicable to your life, no matter how much you want them to be.

At almost 30, I can only hope that at some point in the next 20 years I will have made some progress toward leaving something behind for my children rather than leaving something behind that will only take away from what they are trying to achieve when the time comes.

It is hard to contemplate leaving things behind for anyone! Death is an unknown, the when, how, where of it all is just the beginning!
There is the what happens after, and not just for me, for my children.

Will I get to see the next generation grow?
Call me whatever you might but I just can't accept the fact that it all just ends, regardless of body state. I just can't even fathom the idea that we just disappear and never know what our children and grand children got up too.. or for that matter any of the family any of us leave behind.

Maybe we get to a point where it really doesn't matter to us what happens to everyone else?

Wow, this post went an entirely different direction than I originally planned it!

It was supposed to be up beat, about our growing light and the ever present sunshine my area of the world has been receiving through the depths of winter when it should be dark, cold and wet.

Oh well things change, weather included!

Next post promises to be more interesting with photo's, fun and laughter!

winter solitude

Into the depths of winter here, in terms of the cold at any rate! With the solstice passing us by last month and a small ritual to commit to leaving some attributes behind with the darkness and some new ones coming forth into the ever increasing light.

The business has taken a new course, I am stalling the changes a little because I am unsure as to how I want to step forward.

I have been looking into starting a 'real job' it is a while off. Hinging on a lot of outside factors, but there is a place I want to work, for stability, locality and monetary reasons! I am focusing my energies heavily on that pathway and I will not sway from that in my intentions but rather add to it.

So my little business will become more of a hobby, the intention being to share what I can do with the world around me and beyond.
I will create when I feel the pull towards creation and I will pull back from that as the need arises.

I have plans to start new projects and new lines of 'stock'!
I am in no rush to produce any of those, I will accept that when the time is right the opportunity will present itself to me.

I travel my web of life as it's string passes by many others sometimes connecting and other times traveling the same direction but never meeting. I trust that the things I need will forever be in my reach and at the right time the strings will connect.

May the circle of life keep turning.

Half way there!

Well we are half way through the year!
In order to better understand what is going on I will split this post into 3 one for each kidlet.

Big Kidlet, in year 4 this year, seems to be enjoying her year, we have had a few bad days but she is mostly enjoying her time, although seems to get irritated with the amount of time she spends taking her brother to his class room in the mornings!
She had her 10th birthday last month, and is developing into a young woman at a seemingly magical rate! She is still a hard child to accommodate for, being very set in her ways and not giving an inch without making it out as the worst thing in the world!
She is still very much into technology and doesn't want much to do with anything out of doors, hopefully this summer will turn her around.

Boy Kidlet has taken to school and new found freedoms in leaps and bounds. He knows what he wants out of the experience and for now that is working to his advantage. He recently had his hair cut! He has had long hair pulled back all year, put up with teasing and reminded people continuously that they were silly because "boys can have long hair and I am a boy"! He went to school on 'Crazy Day' dressed as a girl, because he thought it was a brilliant idea to throw people off, and when pressed for ideas on what girls wear, announced that girls wear "Trousers and t-shirts and jumpers"! He went to school with a dress ups fairy dress over his regular clothes, pleased as punch! So his hair is now short, as per his request "as long as my little finger" He loves his new do! He looks much taller and more grown up, and it is still a shock to see his whole face without hair in front of it, even after 1.5 weeks.

Small Kidlet, I can't call her baby anymore! Turning 3 last month, she is a delight most of the time but is a very stubborn child with her own ideas on what and how everything should be done! It is amazing to watch her come into herself, challenging to let her test her boundaries over and over again, day after day! I struggle and then there are moments of quite contemplation where I know I wouldn't want it any other way. Teaching a 3 year old that she can't draw on a piano that someone else has drawn letters on before her is just a flaw. How is she supposed to tell the difference between a letter on a key and her own colourful scribblings?

So the circle turns... ever creeping closer to the moment every parent both longs for and dreads.... When children no longer need them.. we all hope our children will then choose to want us instead!