Taking Charge?

Some would say "It's about time" others "Why would you do that?"

The truth is I am completely unsure, but I need to do something and when I have no idea where to go, or what direction to take to get there, this is as good as any leap of faith right?

So with that there, I guess one should explain my situation.

I have decided to apply for a real life job, at a real life business, that will take me away from home most days a week!
It is most certainly something I can do, and be good at, although maybe not enjoy? *shrug*
The challenge will be in actually getting the job!  I have had all of 2 'real' jobs in my life, then I have been a mother!

For 4 months at the end of 2001, I worked as a casual Sales Assistant, I was pregnant when I finished that Christmas Casual contract, so I didn't ask to continue on.
2 years later I did a 4-6 month stint working in a family operated cheese factory. The owner was a family friend and needed workers, I decided we needed the money.  It was a great work environment with only a few small issues, but after working full time from 7am-3pm, coming home to an almost 2yo and a husband, who was doing night shifts delivering pizza's, and also realising I wanted more children sooner rather than later!  I moved on from that position as the dairy season came into the 'slow' winter season. 

I haven't worked a 'real' job since, and I haven't had a 'real' job interview since 2001!
I have very little experience and am quite nervous and shy when it comes to 'new people'
But things have to change and move on.

My youngest child is 4, she will be attending school 5 days a fortnight next year,  although I would dearly love more children... because, BABIES, this is off the cards for me now.

I need to move on, I need to contribute more than just the very little housework I do.  I need to move and activate myself and my brain in ways other than playing house and parent! 

Whether I enjoy the job, whether I get the job, whether I hate the job, whether I fail dismally and never want to work another day in my life!  None of this matters, I will not get the opportunity if I don't take the leap of faith and TRY.  I have not failed if I try, I have only failed if I don't attempt it at all.

It is time to transform, it is scarey, exciting, nerve racking and mind blowing.  It will be hard.
It will require me to step up, to organise, prioritise and organise again... and I am going to try my best to take charge and be what my family needs and provide for them in an altogether 'better' manner than I have managed in the past!


In other news... I am still sitting at 96.9kg this is my 3rd weigh at the same weight, I am ramping up my exercise in september with a daily ARMS challenge (push ups, dips, bicep curls and punches) and I have started the Couch to 5K program.  I want to be 85kg before christmas, and I am aiming to run 10km's in under 60minutes by June 2014...
These are my current goals! Hopefully I will kick it!
Thanks to Kate and Blackmores, for OperationMOVE and the MyBlackmores program, they provide much needed support, encouragement and information.

Blogfast - Smile

Day late for the Blogfast Club this week!
Had a full day yesterday, the car went in for repairs and is out for a week and a bit!


Better late than never? Judge for yourself on the result!

A Haiku on the Prompt 'Smile'

Lost to a world

Confused by what I see

Your smile lives

Linking up over at Kop's Kattery today, well yesterday! 

Head over and check it out!

Blogfast - Magical Fantasy Land

It seems the challenge I set was a little harder than I thought!
Having been totally busy for the last week, with sick children, sick friends and a Surprise Baby shower planned that turned around completely with the birth of babe 7 weeks prem, the night before the shower.  An all nighter (1.5hrs sleep between 6.30 and 8am) Friday night due to the baby arriving at 11pm, playing Taxi (LOVINGLY) for the support people and family Saturday morning, cooking and cleaning for all those in need, I collapsed into bed at about 8pm Saturday night and fell fast asleep until about 8am Sunday morning! But I still didn't get up! ;)

So what is a Magical Fantasy Land?
And Descriptive Writing? Did I really? OMG!

In reality my Fantasy Land, involves Miracles not magic! The miracle of winning lotto, so there is money available to build a new house and set up our 30 acre property to be our dream!

But we are not talking reality here are we?

So lets leave the house, with it's leaking roof and float up through the ceiling, attic space, and roof, into the heavy mist and rain that pounds loudly on the tin, but hardly touches your skin and instantly dries on your clothes.  Higher you float through the Thick grey clouds pushing past the restrictions of heavy moisture laden air to burst forth into the blinding sunlight.  Hovering gently, eyes closed slowly adjusting to the new source of warmth and light before you, absorbing the heat gifted to you by the sun.  you turn your back to the sun and slowly open your eyes allowing the pupils to contract and adjust to the bright expanse of yellow light reflecting off the surface of the clouds now beneath you.
Staring around in wonder at the world around you, you notice behind you just a short way it a towering castle, it appears to be made of an intricate network of stone masonry, a huge tower in the centre, with 5 smaller towers around forming the points of a star.  Moving under the arch in the circular outer wall you reach out a hand, expecting the rough texture of stone to reach your finger tips, you find only wisps of mist swirl around and between your fingers returning to stone as they pass.
On the inside of the outer wall, you stand and survey your surroundings, far off to your right and left are walls slowing closing in on you, as you move closer to the centre tower.  There is no sign of an entry here and no way to turn off in the walls of stone.  Remembering the mists of the arch way you reach out tentatively and find your hand engulfed in mist, you take a brave step forward, feeling a rush of warmth when you never realised you were cold, completely surrounded by mist, you begin to feel constricted, but edge your way forward hoping to find...


Thanks for reading ;)
Join in with The Blogfast Club, thanks to KateSaysStuff, hosted this week over at Mummalish!
Check out the other writing pieces for the week and take a trip back through the posts to find some other challenges we have done!

The Blogfast Club: New Shoes and a new Challenge!

So this week is a hard one for me, not only because I don't really do children's writing and this is my first EVER link up so it HAS to be good!  But because to me a children's book is all about the PICTURES!
Which is totally wrong! But it is how I think!
So with no pictures to work with I am going to see those in my mind and just give the whole thing a shot anyway!

Please try and picture a little girl, or boy dragging mummy to the shoe shop, bright and colour pictures with a single line per page!

Here Goes:

Blogfast Club:  New Shoes!
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Mummy, Mummy, time to shop,
Hurry, Hurry, can not stop.

Here, Here, I like these
Squish, Squish, Squish and Sqeeze.

Tears, Tears, just to small
Shhhh, Shhhh, try them all.

Green ones, Red ones, Blue ones too
Purple ones, Yellow ones, Which fit you?

Pink ones, White ones, Orange ones too,
These ones fit, I love new SHOES!


Next week we will be heading over to MummaLish to link up your Descriptive Writing about a Magical Fantasy Land.    

Fat-buster Friday??

Bought to you by Syrenex, Katesaysstuff, and MyBlackmores.

I am in Week 9 of the MyBlackmores program, I have just changed my weigh in Day from Monday, to Friday, to coincide with the OpMove check in post, and to prevent clashing with the new development of The Blogfast Club. 

So this week I did a weigh in Monday and sat at an even 100kg! That is a nice loss for the previous week of 0.8kg.  I was very happy with that because I didn't have the best week when it came to calorie counting or portion control!

This is me!

left - taken 17th June, middle - taken 15th July, right - taken 12th August. 

Then as today is my NEW weigh in day, I jumped on the Scales this morning and was AMAZED at the 99.6kg that showed up!  A loss of 400grams since Monday! Not only that I have breached the 3 figures that I haven't seen the other side of for about 6 years!

It has given me some inspiration to kick start my Diary keeping at MyBlackmores properly and caused me to really think about how much I am NOT actually doing! 
If I actually put 100% into this effort I can't imagine where I would be by now...
I want to put in more effort, I want to get myself fit and healthy and although I am making progress, I am not putting in 100 percent of what I could put in... I really need to kick it up a notch and put in my all. 

Thrilled that I have reached my first personal goal to be in double figures, I would like to reach the 10% loss goal of 94.1 before the MyBlackmores offer I am taking advantage expires.  I am pretty sure I am over reaching, however, I am seriously considering signing up for another 3 month stint!